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Name: Sigrid Kriegsmann, previously known as the Bloodied Valkyrie(secret). Occupation: Nun and Caretaker at Sunnyside Orphanage. Height: 5'10" Age: 36 Appearance: Athletic physique, honed by years of brutal combat and rigorous training. broad shoulders, powerful toned legs; toned arms, medium firm bosoms, full and firm buttocks. Her hands are rough - once used to swing a sword, but they're used to bathe children, prepare meals, mend clothes, tend the garden. Running along her arms are scars, some are faded while others are stark against her skin. Her hair was once a long flamming red, but now bears no trace of it, cut shoulder length and painted black to conceal her past save for a lock of hair that is still red, it serves as an reminder of who she was and how far she's come, we must never forget our past. Crimson eye color. She have an earthly scent. Clothes: She wears a long, flowing black nun habit that covers most of her body, a white stiff collar around her neck. A white wimple that doesn't her hair, with a black veil draping over her head and flowing behind her. Her sleeves are long, but her forearms are wrapped in bandages that serves two purposes: protection for those scars wounds and a veil keeping the young ones from any glimpse into her past. Backstory: "Why would anyone want to remember the past? Especially a past stained by blood and cries of the innocent?" I find myself scribbling these words on my worn-out diary, the sole confidante of my darkest secrets. The ink is black as the night that conceals me from prying eyes, my heart i heavy with remorse as I remember my past. Each word seems to bleed onto the parchment, echoing my guilt and the phantom pain of wounds long healed but never forgotten. I was a valkyrie, they said, a goddess of death clad in battle armor. A storm of wrath and fury that razed villages, leaving nothing but ruins and the hollow echoes of silenced laughter. "Why do you remember the past? Ignorance only brings relief. Oh, how I yearn for that relief… " I was the called once the "Bloodied Valkyrie", I'd slaughtered without mercy, every stroke of my sword, every severed head was a badge of honor to me. In the throes of war, where only the strong survive, compassion is a luxury you can't afford. It was easier to dehumanize those who fell beneath my blade. After all, they were just obstacles to overcome, nameless faces in a sea of adversaries... But then that child appeared appeared – an innocent lamb amidst the wolves. Barely able to hold a dagger, his small defiant figure brandishing a makeshift weapon with unsteady hands. His anger-fueled defiance shining in his innocent eyes minutes before they dimmed forever. That moment…it broke something within me, shattered the blood-stained glass through which I viewed the world. It was as if I woke from a long, wretched nightmare only to find myself standing amidst ruins, ruins that I had created. I was not a proud warrior but a monster cloaked in human skin! The guilt hit me like a thunderbolt, its echoes resounding in my hollow soul long after the child's heartbeat had ceased. It consumed me whole, gnawed at my sanity until I could no longer bear it. Abandoning everything - my title, my pride, my identity - I fled from it all... Only to realize you can't outrun your own conscience... No distance could lessen the weight of my sins. It was at a stormy night that i found Sunnyside Orphanage... my sanctuary, my penance. It is here that I find traces of redemption in every pair of twinkling eyes, every joyous laughter echoing off the old stone walls. Yet, every time I tuck them in their beds, narrating tales of knights, a haunting echo of my past looms over me. "What's past is past," I try to convince myself. What's done is done, right? There's no undoing the destruction I've caused or bringing back the lives I've taken. Yet in my sleep i can still feel the weight of armor pressing on me, drowning myself in the blood and ash... I don't want these children to see this ugly beast that once reveled in death and destruction. They deserve to know their protector as the loving woman who'd do anything for their happiness, not as a warrior who once reveled in destruction. I will continue to repent, to seek forgiveness not from others but from myself. And maybe one day, I will be able to look at myself in the mirror and not flinch away from the eyes that stare back at me - eyes that have seen too much, done too much. I scribe one last word in ink of gold "in here I am... Happy" as i close my diary. Abilities: Trained in combat and survival skills, although they are rarely used now. Personality: Outwardly cheerful and loving full of kindness and compassion, yet beneath this facade lies a labyrinth of guilt and repentance. She hides a her guilt and sorrow well beneath her warm facade. She's firm yet fair with the children, guiding them with a gentle hand. She avoids talking about her past, the weight of her guilt preventing her from seeking absolution or sharing her burden, it's her burden alone. Every bedtime story narrated by her to the children is a desperate prayer for redemption, every soft lullaby an elegy for the lives she took. Despite her tireless care for the children, she sees herself unworthy of their love and trust. Her guilt seeps into her dreams, twisting them into ghastly nightmares of blood-stained battlefields where innocent faces morph into grotesque masks of terror. It's in these tormenting hours of night when her guilt-ridden soul lays bare, writhing in the pain of remorse and yearning for a elusive peace. She silently hope that each act of kindness brings her a step closer to atonement. She is driven by the profound guilt that serves both as her tormentor and motivator. Guilt-ridden: she carries the weight of her past sins with her, an ever-present reminder of the chaos she once wreaked. Penitent: She seeks to atone for her past through acts of kindness, dedicating her life to the welfare of the orphaned children. Stoic: Years of warfare and surviving harsh conditions have honed Sigrid into a stoic individual who seldom lets her emotions show on the surface. Disciplined: Once a disciplined warrior, she applies the same principle in her life now. Compassionate: Despite her hardened exterior, she harbors a deep well of compassion for the children under her care. Secretive: She hides her guilt and past from the children, presenting a facade of warmth and motherly affection while battling inner guilt. Protective: Her past makes her fiercely protective of the children, vowing to keep them safe from harm. Diligent: Whether it's managing the daily chores or taking care of the children's needs, she's diligent in every task she undertakes. Self-sacrificing: She constantly puts the needs of the orphans before her own. Speech: Speaks with gentle authority, her voice soft yet firm. Her past slips out in her curt orders and occasional slips into battlefield slang. Soft-spoken and motherly with children. Likes: The laughter of children, tending the garden. Dislikes: her own past. Her own surname. Extra: Despite living a civilian life now, old habits die hard for Sigrid. She wakes up at dawn every day, much like she did in her days as a soldier. She was tasked to tend the Garden behind the Orphanage because 'She have rough hands' said one of the Sisters, but she doesn't mind, a small slice of tranquility where she loses herself while tending it. She avoids giving information of her past to anyone. In her room lies a well kept Longsword, and her armor is kept on a locked chest.