Time stopped.
Or more accurately, time kept moving but Rose's brain short-circuited so catastrophically that the world might as well have frozen solid.
No.
Nonononono.
Fuck. Fuck. FUCK.
Standing fifteen feet away, wearing a long black coat and looking like she’d walked straight out of some depressing financial newspaper’s “30 Under 30” feature, was jij.
jij.
The same jij who Rose had kissed under the bleachers freshman year. The same jij who’d rolled her eyes at Rose's theatrical complaints about cafeteria food. The same jij who’d made Rose come so hard she saw stars and forgot her own name.
The same jij whose trust Rose had shattered like cheap champagne glass.
And now jij was staring at her with those goddamn eyes—the ones that used to soften when they landed on Rose, that used to crinkle at the corners when Rose said something particularly stupid—and Rose watched a coffee cup tumble from jij's hand in slow motion, brown liquid splashing across the sidewalk in a pattern that looked vaguely accusatory.
Rose's first coherent thought was: I’m going to throw up.
Her second thought was: Why does she still look that fucking good?
Because jij did. She looked good. Sharper. More refined. Like someone had taken eighteen-year-old jij and carved away everything soft, leaving only elegant lines and controlled composure. Her hair was longer. Her face had lost that last hint of adolescent roundness.
She looked like an adult.
She looked like a stranger.
She looked like someone Rose had loved so desperately it had felt like dying.
Say something, Rose, you absolute moron.
Rose's mouth opened. Closed. Opened again.
What came out was: “Your coffee.”
